Disapointment..

"Are you awake..?"
I can hear the concern in my mother's voiceI'm not ready to wake up just yet.. I wait till i hear her leave the room before I open my eyes. I roll over and see the sun gleaming at me. Memories of the previous night start filling my head. The crying and tossing and turning all night. I close my eyes,roll over burying my face into my pillow and take a deep breath readying myself for the long day ahead.
"Are you awake yet..?"
I open my eyes to see my mother smiling at me. I stretch and manage to get out a "goodmorning!". My mother shoves pills and a glass of water in my face. I chuckle before taking them "Thanks Nurse,". I'm only 16 and I already have a pill cocktail I have to take morning and night to keep me sane. Ones she leaves I frantically start searching for my phone. Did He try to get a hold of me?. I find it,my heart starts racing and I stare at the black screen waiting for the little red light to flash. It flashes. I unlock my phone and there it is,
Goodmorning
He txted me.. I sigh with relief and head towards the shower.I blast Dance Gavin Dance Uneasy hearts weigh the most and let the water engulf me.Few hours later I find myself at Frys Electronics standing infront of the movie section.The lights are to bright and my legs begin to tremble Not here..Not now..I take a deep breath and continue to browse through the endless racks of overpriced discs.A man starts talking to my mother a few feet away . Something about customer blah blah, Tv's.As they start walking away I begin to follow,I look away for a second and they're no where to be found. I continue to pace the aisles and it finally hits. My heart is all the sudden in my throat beating out of control. My legs start to shake and my breathing quickens. The room starts to slowly spin. I Gain control and decide to look for my sister.Hours later I'm at home again. The hell hole, where all my problems started. My father asks the question i've been waiting for"you guys want to take a ride in the porsche?"I immediatly run to the car and sit in the passenger seat. The Freedom I needed, when the top is down and the cool night wind is just running through my hair it relaxes me like no other. My father asks the worst question possible."Where is your boyfriend?"Panic strikes. Imediatly reply with I don't know i'm not his keeper..We start getting red lights at every traffic light. Everytime we stop at one I start to feel sick. My heart is in my throat and I feel like i'm about to pass out.Once we get home i decided it was time to ask,
should I start the movie without you baby?"
his reply
can we watch it tomarrow?..