Waking up for the third time that morning i woke to
I bet I'm up before you! good morning!
Suddenly waking up wasn't so horrible anymore..I had something to look forward to. Anxiety kicked as soon as I stepped out of the car. I could feel my adrenaline screaming at me to run as far away as possible.. if only, Once the bell rang i made my way to class and took my seat in the very back. I instantly put my head down and decided to try to sleep as much as i could to get class over with. 2 and a half hours later I'm out and the disappointment sets in. No I'm not going to see him today.. I tried to convince myself that after a nap i would wake up to his lips on my cheek.. I wrapped myself up and began to dream
I dreamt of my father catching dead bodies,
pulling the hooks out,
leaving the bodies to bleed every were.
I wake in a cold sweat and search for my phone frantically, I text him
So I'm guessing I'm not going to see you?
his reply
No, I'm sorry ! :(
I didn't expect to see him.. I knew something was to perfect about the whole thing.. Even though I knew a part of me wanted to throw up my sinking heart. I don't want this venerability anymore, i want to be that stone cold bitch I was before.. it was so much easier that way..
I txt Angie, she always lifts my spirits up.
an hour later i'm at her house eating snow cones and watching unborn.
3 hours later we're at the movies making fun of harry potter,
during the ride home
... I swear we were infinite..
Angie and rikki
No matter how much i say i love him
you guys always hold the number one spot in my heart.