I Don't talk much i like to observe, in a crowded room I rather be off to the side watching all the others laugh and chat while i wonder what it would be like to be one of them. I have a 13 year old sister whom i'm completley envious of, Ha ha thats the first time i've ever actually admitted to it.. She's a true artist, she knows how to put clothes together and she's extremely social despite her anxiety condition. I was i was that artistic i would kill to be able to write and take pictures just as good as her drawings. I wish i was deep, that i could see things from other people's perspective before just letting my thoughts spill out of my mouth. I want to be able to help people and enetertain them. I truley am just a plain jane there is nothing i've ever been so good at that people have complimented me. I think that's why i'm so obsessed with my looks. I've only ever been told i'm so thin or pretty. without that no one would ever notice me.  My own mother is more social with my friends then I am. 
          if i ever hear someone compliment any work of mine,
i think i might just have to hold them and cry.